Just random thoughts
This isn’t going to be very well structured — or well written, for that matter — but that’s okay. I just want to share some random thoughts, ideas, whatever’s in my head right now.
I’m working on a video game — I haven’t actually started coding it yet, or made any textures, or done anything, but I’ve got an idea of what I want it to be. It’s going to be a simple game which occurs at the middle of the night. Everyone but you is sleeping and you’re hungry. You have to get through different obstacles, squeaky doors and floors, try not to turn on the light too loudly, and of course, pay attention to what time it is. People are occasionally going to wake up — we all gotta pee sometime. Oh, and you can wake them up. You really don’t want to do that though — you know how people are at 3 AM when you wake them up and the reason is shredded cheese. I’m not sure if I want to make it a mobile game, a browser game, or a standalone PC game. I’m not sure about anything really, I just have this one frame in my head when I close my eyes and I know I have to make this game and I have to make that picture in my mind reality. I’m not sure what language I’ll use to make it; I’m currently learning C++, but I might just have to go through with python, because I’m still rather new to using C++ for game development, or anything really; all of my experience with it is from like 4th or 5th grade, when I was solving problems with it.
Enough about my game, let’s talk about something else. I’m pretty stressed out about school. Or am I really? I have more than 10 missing assignments and I have more than one 0 on an important project, but yet here I am, writing this post and not doing a project on the Thracian Gods, or studying the vocab for the Spanish test which is right around the corner. I’m going to try and apply for the ASSIST program — for those of you who don’t know what it is, it’s an exchange student program, where you get to spend your G. 11 studying in a US school. It’s basically been my dream since ever. I actually don’t remember when I started wanting that, but I know that I would be super happy if I were chosen to go, alas that probably won’t happen. Some time ago I would be very certain that I would be chosen, but lately I’ve just been losing my grip on reality. I guess this is one of the reasons I’m writing this story, collection of random thoughts, random rambling — call it whatever you want to. It helps me feel in control, and I find comfort in the idea that someone else might read this. I don’t know why that’s so comforting, but it feels like I matter — after all, I’ve affected a stranger’s life somehow, and if it wasn’t for that, world history would never be the same.
Yesterday, on the 5th of November, my girlfriend and I celebrated our 2 year anniversary. This year we didn’t go all out on presents for each other, but instead did smaller things with a focus on the sentimental value. Last year, she got me a PlayStation Classic — it’s a replica of the official PS1; I got her some earrings with butterflies. I had gotten her some earrings which were very similar, and again had butterflies, for Christmas when we had just started out dating, but she eventually lost them, so I thought that it would be a nice idea to get her some again. What she doesn’t know is that I also bought her her first graphics card for her computer, which I was building at the time — her birthday is just at the end of November, and she didn’t have a computer, so I wanted to make her one. I saved up and used some of my old parts, bought some new ones, all in all I managed to get her a decent enough rig, which we eventually upgraded. It’s still not as good as I’d like it to be, because she deserves much better, but I’m working on that. I started rambling and really forgot the main point, so let’s go back to that — this year’s anniversary. I got her a heart shaped plastic transparent container, which is filled with water and heart cut outs. The special thing about the container is that you can open up it’s back lid, and there’s a place to put a photo there, so I printed out some cute pictures of us, cut them out, and hid them there, with just a white sheet with LOVE written on it. When I gave it to her, I told her to open up the back for a special surprise. She seemed to love it, and I really hope she does. I got her that present almost 3 months ago, around the 10th of August — I remember it was the last day of the week after my birthday. The reason I remember it is because in a cosmetics shop near me, you have a 15% discount in your birthday week, and my mom really wanted to go and make use of it, so while she was getting her things, I looked around and I really liked the idea of this. I’m so glad I did that and I didn’t just leave it. Her present for me was a drawing of a frog, because we have a lot of jokes and even somewhat of an obsession with frogs. Speaking of a frog obsession, she also rewrote the way we met, our first date, when I asked her out, and some great moments we’ve had from her point of view as a frog — of course, I was a frog too. It was amazing, and I’m incredibly lucky to have a girlfriend like her. For that, I am thankful and I’ll always be, no matter what.
I feel like I’ve already written a lot of dumb things, so I’ll end it here. I think I want to finish these random stories with something funny, so here’s my only memory from when I was…. 5? 6? 7? 4? I honestly have no idea. All I remember is that it was New Year’s Eve, and the fireworks had just started lighting up the sky, so my mom told me to make a wish. I kid you not, I remember the exact place I was standing in my apartment, wishing to become a rhinoceros. A rhinoceros. Yep, you read that right. What’s even worse is that I have this weird feeling like I actually did morph into a rhino, and I started running and slammed right in the wall under the window, broke through it, and fell down from the 3rd floor. I was a weird kid.
Thank you for bearing with my random non-sense. Maybe there won’t be any other stories like this one, maybe there will be — who knows. Only time will tell. I hope you have a great day, evening, night, morning, anything. If you take away one thing from this mess, let it be to tell someone you love them and how much you appreciate them. People are here one second and gone the other in an instant, and you’ll regret not listening to my advice.